My world

CNY 2012

2012-01-23T09:58:00.000-08:00

This year Chinese new year was a bit different from the past.
Spend the new year eve and new year night w the same person.
First time going Chinatown for Cny countdown.
Super duper bad experience, super crowding de !
Ppl push here push there. Got children also push !
Doesnt even care bout the safety of the child.
Maybe this is the ugly side of the humans ?
I swear i will never go Chinatown during new year's eve le !
Todayy is the first dayy of Cny. Was much more boring than last year.
And lesser ang bao ? Was bored till i want to go walk walk.
Went to the River Hongbao for a walk.
We are like 2 tourists. Keep losting our wayy.
Dumb dumb ahh ? hahahs
At least that dumb dumb won a bear and a dolphin for me ^^
cuteeee lehh ! Lazy to type le. Enjoy the pics taken byy me and dumb dumb :D

Me love myself ! heheh

2011-12-26T21:55:00.000-08:00

Photo posting onlyy ~ hehehe

I LOVE MYSELF <3

Understanding

2011-12-18T21:33:00.000-08:00

After yesterdayy , i realise we might not understand each other well .

I wonder do he reallyy understand what i mean ytd?

Do he knoww when im happy when im not thru msg ?

Do he understand my silence ?

The feeling i get ytd is total loneliness .

I never never needed someone so much when i am sick .

This is the first time and he is not by myy side .

I dont blame him for anything .

I knoww he is busy w work , and i knoww it all along .

He told me he might not have time for me before we are even tgt .

I knoww .. im trying to get use to it .

But here i am losing myy temper making him worried .

Maybe i dont even understand myself , howw to make him understand me ?

At some point of time i reallyy hate myself .

Hate myself for being so selfish ,

hate myself for being so petty ...

He always give ways to me ..

Maybe i might not be good enough for himm ..

He is way too good and me ? hais

He deserve better .. but i didnt give himm what he deserve .

FAILED ! Im such a fail gf . I must endure and give himm some space bahh ..

Happygirl94

2011-12-17T07:48:00.000-08:00

Woot its been a long time since i blog .
Hahahs was feeling tired everydayy .
Even days when im not working .
Something must be wrong w me !!
But i feel reallyy happy bout myy current life noww ^^
I have himm byy myy side .
Never have that special feeling before ..
Although i always tell himm to find other girls ,
but i dont really mean it ..
Told himm what i have always wanted to tell himm .
hehehe i love himm ttm <3

Seriouslyy i dont knoww what is wrong w me .
Feeling tired almost everydayy even days that im having off .
hais and total 4cuts in just a few dayy .
Whyy is that so ? i never touch any knife lehh .
I also never touch anything that will cut myy hand for todayy .
Omg scary sial . hahahs !
I really feel so lazy to post le ..
Shall stop here . *wink wink*

Love himm <3
25/11/11 <3

Interview ...

2011-11-21T04:13:00.000-08:00

21 Nov 2o11 , myy third or fourth times going for an interview .
Meet bev at around 12.30pm.
Headed down to city hall soon after we meet .
Reach city hall bout 1plus and we its too early ,
So we went for a walk at the esplanade .
Suddenlyy it was raining heavily , we was planning to go outside for a walk .
In the end our plan was ruin byy the weather .
Seat down at the esplanade for around 15mins ?
And we headed to Raffles city for interview .
When we reach its too early still so we went to marketplace for a walk .
Brought himm a bottle of veggie juice and we went up .
Omg so nervous sial (although its not the first time going for interview)
He came out to meet me first before bringing us in to the shop .
I was so afraid that i cant handle the job ...
After the interview , he accompany us out ..
He keep telling me not to work if its not in city hall .
He scare if i go other outlet ppl will bully me .. *so sweet*
Bev so funny sial , sayy he keep looking at me and talk and never sayy bye to her.
From what i see and sense for this few days or weeks ,
he is really a good guy and caring at some point .
Bev are also able to sense it . I hope he is the onee .
I will wait and i hope im able to work w himm <3

Myy effort is starting to pay off

2011-11-20T03:08:00.000-08:00

Finally i start to see myy effort paying off.

This kind of feeling is hard to describe .

Was outside w mum just noww .

Went to toa payoh for shopping .

Brought one pair of shoes for tmr interview .

When we are on the train back home .

He text me ...

I was shocked ttm !! As he will seldom text me first

As he was busy working ..

When i was gonna reach Ntuc he send me a msg

which makes me thinkk that myy effort is worthwhile .

That feeling was like founding a treasure after a long while .

I felt so happyy and was smiling to myself once i saw that msg .

HAPPYGIRL94 :D

Fun day out w him

2011-11-19T04:01:00.000-08:00

17 Nov 2011 , unforgettable outing.
Woke up around 8plus in the morning . Feeling excited bout it ~
Hhahas waiting for him to text me to ask me out =P
In the end i still text himm first =P
Meet around 1plus then headed to plaza sing .
Catch a 2pm movie , You're the apple of myy eye . Niceee ~
After the 110mins movie , went to mac for lunch . hahahs
Awkward moments =x
After eating , went for some walking . hahahs
From Plaza sing walk all the way to Raffles city .
Awkward silent all the wayy ....
Tryy to start topic to break the silent and i started asking stupid question =x
From Raffles city we walk to Marina square .
Slowly we started to have more things to talk bout and lesser awkward silents.
Found something cool at Marina square .
The wedding photo was not taken byy camera but drawn byy ppl !
Both of us was thinking if it is really drawn out . hahahs !
From Marina square , we walk to suntec city ~
Use talking more bout restaurant and food there .
Walking past lots of restaurant and telling each other what is nicee .
Telling each other which reataurant serve nicee food .
Hahahs its fun talking with himm :D
When on our wayy to city hall mrt station , we saww this pet shop.
Inside there is hamster (his favourite animal ^^) and rabbits ! So cuteeeee !
Left city hall at around 7pm ? and started to head back .
He went home and i went to meet bev.
On our wayy back , i saw his hand . ITS DAMN RED !
Dont knoww whyy i started to worry bout his hand when i saww it .
It doesnt hurt nor itchy . I wonder whyy ...
When i meet bev , myy whole mind was thinking bout buying hand cream , hand masks and etc that helps his hand .
But it was really a great dayy out w himm .
Make me understand himm more and also a chance for me to let himm knoww more bout me . Unforgettable outing w himm ^^

Brand new life

2011-11-08T04:02:00.000-08:00

Long time never post le .
Was busy preparing for Os and finally its gonna end soon !
14nov will be the last paper ~ so happy
Noww have to stress bout work !!
Dont knoww want to work where ):
Go for interview at giordano just noww
they seems like they are not in need of ppl .
Hais myy dream job is gone !
Very obvious that the "auntie" dont want us lor .
Never take our ic to print never take our photo !
Onlyy tell us write application forms !
Forget it shall find another job bahh ...
but i still feel like working in gio ))):
Cant wait to meet myy loves on 11nov and 19nov !
omg so excited !!!! heheheh
So tired for todayy . shall stop here ! bye my world :D hahas

2011-10-07T03:28:00.000-07:00

Long time never update myy blog le.
hahas lots of things had happen this few months
Making me damn fk up !
Has reactivate fb
and get to talk to some of the friends i have not talk to for a long time !
HAHAS ! Out of sudden i have become mistress of someone!
Cool right ? dont knoww whyy suddenly will become his mistress !
Hahahs but it is really quite cool and fun =p
O level in another 12 days !!!
So scare and stress !! ARGH !
Cant take it lahhh ! sian !!!

Friendship !

2011-06-20T20:21:00.000-07:00

Its amazing how we have been friends for such a long time ~

From Primary 2 till now ?

Cool right ?!

Till now we are still friend !

Best friend ! cool ~

Although have some fight in between ..

But in the end we are back to normal !

This is friendship !!

My true friend !

Love her totally ttm !!

My feeling ...

2011-06-10T00:58:00.000-07:00

Totally express what im thinking about for today :D

Korean

2011-06-06T07:00:00.000-07:00

갑자기 내가 밖으로 한국어를 배우는 것 같아.

하하. 그것은 아주 새로운 무언가를 배우는 괜찮아요.

그러기 위해서는 한국어를 먼저 배워야 Yonghwa 가까이 갈 수 있습니다.

적어도 나는 그가 자신의 쇼에 대해서로 이야기됩니다 뭔지 알 수 있습니다.

나는 또한 기타를 배우고 싶었어요.

CN blue 회원은 주로 기타를 연주니다.

그것은 내가 단지 집에 기타를 가지고로 설정 드럼을 배우는 데 매우 어렵다.

하지만 경우에 기회는 내가 너무 세트 드럼을 배우고 싶어요 것입니다 해요!

너무 멋져요 맞지?

그것은 파란색을 CN blue 점점 가까이 같았다. hahah

정말 그것에 대해 흥분된다!

~ 곧 가야

Life

2011-06-04T06:38:00.000-07:00

I realise life is too short to fool around .

Exams takes up 1/4 of our life to study for it .

Work takes up another 1/4 of our life .

Relationship takes up another 1/4 .

And the rest is taken up by something call friends .

It was friends who can brighten up our days .

We can chat bout unhappy things ,

share some small secret ,

having them around when you needed them ,

its a wonderful things in life .

But when you yourself have ruined a friendship

you will feel down ! so down !

Sadness x100

This is not a good feeling .

You will definately regret ruining a friendship ,

losing a great friend .

You cant expect him / her to forgive you easily .

I dont expect you to wait .

Cos im in the wrong .

Sorry for ruining this friendship because of my stupid attitude .

My really stupid attitude !

Its not easy to find good friends

and its even harder to find great friend who always give in to you .

2011-06-03T01:20:00.000-07:00

I dont want to lose you this friend .

Thats why i want you to stay away for the time being .

Im afraid this period of time i'll do something ...

something stupid that might make me lose you .

And your exam is around the corner ...

Its not the right time to speak about everything .

I think this will be a better way to keep you concentrate .

I know i can be irritating at times

and you might not know what am i thinking .

So i think this is the best time to let you

as well as myself to think it through

and to know me better .

It might be a long period

but as long as you understand me ,

I guess this will all be better soon .

Whatever !

2011-06-02T07:43:00.000-07:00

I dont care what you say .

All i can say im disappointed .

I can sense it is me .

But whatever it is im feeling bad bout this .

Mayb its better to have you stay away from me

for the time being .

No mood to post anything for this few days le .

Hais

All because of the past ...

2011-05-30T05:18:00.000-07:00

Tmr is his birthday le .

I was still deciding if i should wish him happy birthday .

Was thinking back to the past ...

I realise something ...

If i never break with my ex ,

I will not get to know you ,

I will not chat with you ,

Will not be friend with you ,

and most importantly i will not fall for you .

Because of one decision ,

im in love with you

and im being hurt deeply by you .

Was counting down on your birthday .

Stupid me !!!

Still its so hard for me to give up ..

So hard ....

hais ......

So cuteeeee !!!

2011-05-28T02:00:00.000-07:00

He is so cute and handsome !

Omg irresistable ! hehehe

After watching the korean varity show

i started to like him alot !

Omg ! seriously cute !

If i meet this kind of guy in Singapore i 'll never let it go :p

hahaha but i think it will be impossible lor ):

saddie !

But he posses what a perfect guy should have .

but this is only my side of thoughts lah .

Different ppl have different taste ~

Jung Yong Hwa ! <3

Im in love with Jung Yong Hwa <3

heheheh <3

2011-05-27T03:08:00.000-07:00

I have to forget .

But my heart told me not to .

Mayb this is memories that i should not forget ?

Or memorises that teaches me to be brave but yet cautious ?

I have decided to follow my heart and go on .

I know its stupid but i cant go against what my heart say

and its diffcult to go against it .

Mayb this way i will not feel sorry for myself

and this might be better for me ?

Its been years but i still cant forget everything he do or say .

Its like memorises that cant be deleted !

I hope this memeorises will make me stronger .

Mayb this is call love .

Although you are not mine but im happy that you found someone you love .

I wish you all the best & last long !

As long as you happy i'll be happy .

I hope i will really be happy seeing you happy !

<3 11/11/09

Im worried ...

2011-05-23T23:38:00.000-07:00

Today my good friend text me saying his head is bleeding .

But i cant reply him due to prepaid low .

I dont know whats the condition now .

I felt so sorry that i cant reply him when he text me .

So sorry that i cant be by his side when he needs me .

Im so sorry !

IM SO SORRY ! ):

This is my life & its up to me to control

2011-05-23T01:22:00.000-07:00

This is my own life so i should control it myself !

I cannot let you fool around with my life .

I do not live just for you .

I live for my family ,

my dreams , my future !

You are just a passer-by who is trying to ruin my day , my life .

You doesnt worth my tears at all !

You only know how to make me cry & totally ruin my days at some point of time.

Although sometimes you give me happiness but i know that is not from the bottom of your heart .

Now i must try to let you go & live you .

If i continue clinging on to you ,

my dream , my future will be gone !

I believe i can always find someone better than you (:

Was watching this show after Annie show me the video !

Damn nice de cos got shuai ge :P

Seriously im falling in love with Korea guys !

Super duper handsome !

Feel like migrating to Korea ! ( joking :p)

Nowadays so hard to find shuai ge in Singapore lor ):

hahah Korea guys is soooooooo cute & handsome !!!

CANNOT STAND IT <3

My Favourite ! (dream guy ~) hehehe <3

He is back again

2011-05-22T00:26:00.000-07:00

He is back into my life again .

This time round is so different from the past .

I know his character and might know what he will do again .

But i choose to trust him for the fourth time .

I will not regret & im prepare for the worst .

I hope he did change and treat me truthfully as a friend for now .

This few days he is so sweet to me ,

but i dont feel secure by the things he told me .

He say he will always be there for me .

He say when im stress i can call him ,

when im sad i can text him ,

when im bored can text him ,

even when i need someone to talk to badly .

But should i trust him ?

He lied to me over and over again .

What if i trusted him but he lied again ?

I'll be hurt again ):

I shall stop texting him so i can forget bout him ...

A brand new start

2011-05-21T02:48:00.000-07:00

Im back to blogging again ~ hahah

Spend alot of time looking for new skin .

This is really a stupid year for me ):

Stupid results and he is back into my life like before .

I dont know how to handle this person which came back to me after 1 year .

Been through all those stupid things he done to me ,

and i still choose to believe him AGAIN !

Believe him for the 4th time !

Stupid me ! Thankfully i have someone to talk to (:

HO GUO WEI below is what i want to tell you ;

You have been a great friend to me for this few weeks or month .

Im really happy to know you & share my little secret with you .

Im sorry that im not always there for you

and so sorry for getting angry easily .

Im not a good friend like you .

Im really sorry but i hope you will be my best friend forever .

I'll try my best to be a good friend

and i'll try to be there for you when you need me (:

Thank you for being there for me , always .

I appreciate it alot <3 thank you !